I'm back tracking a bit in time! October 2nd was such General Conference we were able to watch the Saturday session but recorded the Sunday session because our family attended a funeral of the Mr.'s co-worker's son, Adam. Her son had struggled a year ago and was working through things and doing well. He had depression and Sunday, they laid his body to rest. He committed suicide.
It prompted a good conversation with our children. We wanted them to know that there is nothing that they could do that should even bring to mind taking their lives. We know life is hard and offers trials that seem overwhelming. We let them know that sometimes there will be pain so great that you may think it easier to die. Do not entertain such thoughts. Do not dance with the devil. For these thoughts are from him.
We all attended such a lovely service but it was so heart breaking to hear such audible sadness. They were not members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, they were of another faith. I felt for them. I ached for them too. However, they do believe in a life after. Suicide leaves the living left with feelings of guilt, what if, could of, should of.
It brought questions to my mind. Is it a Latter Day Saint thing? I have always heard that the Lord will not give you more than you can handle. Where is that written, who said that? And, is it because I heard that and was told that I know that my trials are able to be overcome? Clearly, his trials were more than he could handle. Did someone not tell him? I DEFINITELY believe and understand that our life is a GIFT it is not for us to TAKE it is only our Father in Heaven's. I know there have been members of the church who have committed suicide. There trial was more than they could bare. I know the Lord has the perfect plan. I know He will be the only one who will offer us his saving mercy.
Adam's passing allowed us to re-itterate to our children our love, our Savior's love and the glorious gift of the atonement and all that it entails! I too, wrote that day to our son, who was serving his mission and bore to him my testimony of the gospel.
I let him know, as I testified to our other children that there is nothing that they could do or say that would keep us from loving them. There is nothing that our family could not get through together that would warrant such a drastic and permanent answer. Yes, there would be disappointments, yes there may be tears but in the morn hope would arise and faith would go forth. They may face trials that may seem or appear overwhelming and too much. Remember who they are. Get on bended knee and plead for our Father's help. Help will come. It will come in impressions to your mind and to your heart, it will come from the voice of others, it will come through service. It is important to look for these answers in others. I just want them to know that our Father will never leave them alone. Satan will place horrible thoughts of doubt and guilt into your minds and have you believe that no one will love you, that you are a big disappointment, shame, etc. Those thoughts will never come from our Father in Heaven, God. He is the creator of all, even you. He would never look upon you with disdain. He is all loving and understanding and has sent his Beloved Son, Jesus Christ to provide a way that we can stand spotless again and bring ourselves back to live with him.