RUFF RUFF - I should be a DOG

I should totally be a dog! I am so unmotivated to exercise and I am a bit depressed about the expanding waistline. HOW do I remedy this? Well, I keep eating of course, and I eat all of the sinful foods too. All the time while I am shoveling it in or going for seconds or thirds I am thinking to myself. :: You really shouldn't eat another one:: I shoot right pass that thought and pop another one in. I feel good while I am eating it, almost satisfied or lulled. Then the after hits and I feel horrible guilty and depressed. What do I do? WEll excercise comes to mind but that is but a fleeting thought, it leaves even quicker than the thought of not having another treat. This is why I should be a dog or a hire a dog walker. My dog despises exercise or walks too. You literally have to coax him out and drag him out to take a walk. This is how it goes. Kekoa want to go outside? pant pant pant, tail wagging, he is so happy to go outside. He runs to the front door. NOPE! YOu are going on the back door on the leash. Instantly, he runs to his corner. Aint no way, you are going to get him to go outside on the leash. Ahhh, but I said so!, so we beckon him once again, and then another. Each time, my voice is becoming more authoritive. At least, this voice works on SOMEBODY, around here. Kekoa begrudgingly comes to the back door, head down, and ever so sad. FINE! He waits for the leash to attach. Even if I was taking him walking, It is like I have to coax him into it. THIS is me! I would be on the couch. Oh, you wanna go for a walk with me? Uhhh... no! Someone would then have to put a leash around my neck, I would not be happy about this, fight all the way to the door and the front porch. I would then be dragged to the corner and once I got past the CORNER, I would then start walking because I would have given up on all hope of ever getting back into the house and have then realized that it is better to just get it done than fight it. Halfway through my walk, I would have found the beauty in my suroundings and happy that I got out, 1/3 of the way home, my pace would quicken because I am tired, hot and thirsty and just want to GET HOME!!! I am so not an exerciser! I used to be. Now you have to TRICK me into exercising. This is why when I worked the ramp, I lost so much weight because I was working, lifting bags, it didnt feel like exercise and I liked what I was doing. Dropped 30lbs. UMMMM a year on gate and those freakin 30lbs are BACK!!! I am so depressed! but strangely content too. weird! When I was thinner my testimony and challenges were really tried. I used to tell bill that the Holy Ghost likes me fat. LOL, I seem to be more spiritual and better staying on the path. I have made new personal spiritual goals and BAM! FAT! LOL, of course, I do not believe this! But, it sorta kinda rings true. When I lost weight there were different temptations and I was a little more self centered. I have heard of the word of wisdom and being healthy, so I know about your body is a temple da da da.... Maybe, my body chooses to be the Washington DC temple. After all, we were married there. LOL:: Seriously, contemplating running and add for a PEOPLE WALKER! must be very determined and this is a potentially dangerous job. I may bite, if provoked. roflrofl.