My BROWN EYE GIRL

This is a self portrait that Kai took! She did a great job!
I love it!!!

BEAUTY

BRAINS

CHARM

PERSONALITY

ALL IN ONE LITTLE GIRL

For some time Sweetheart has been complaining that she could not see the board at school and she has been complaining about headaches. She has complained off and on for about 5 months. (yeah, we suck as parents, I know. I am definitely in the running for worst parent of the year award). Today, Kai had an appointment with an eye doctor. Doctor Spoda. He believes that her eye muscles may just be having spasms and she really is not near sighted. However, at this age it is so difficult to truly tell. Do you know how tempted I was to take my camera in and document everything he would do?? Sweetheart wanted to go back to school with glasses so we had to go to the mall to LensCrafters to allow this to happen. She has been anticipating the possibility of having to wear glasses for, well 5 MONTHS! (guilt ridden).

I was devastated when I had to wear glasses at 13. She is 9. She has been telling her friends for weeks that she may have to wear glasses and they have all been supportive and excited for her. She wants to get some "KEWL" glasses. Stylin' glasses. Face it, at nine years old and the cruelty of how children are I would have spent $1000 on a pair of glasses if it meant, giving her more confidence to go to school! I am that way, Bill is not. I am so blessed that she is a woman who knows what she wants and is EASY to please. She already had the look in her head and LensCrafters had 50% off glasses and frames. She picked glasses that I would never ever pick in a hundred years for myself. You can't tell but these glasses are lined with PURPLE on the inside so they are two toned. She loves them. She says a few other girls at school have similar glasses. "OK..... Sweetheart, are you sure?" "Yes, mom. I want these." I look at the attendant and say, "Isn't it LensCrafters that if you purchase your frames and you don't like them you can come back and choose another?"
He ho hums around and I am getting annoyed. BTW, I get easily annoyed very quickly. He replies, "Yes, but we don't want that." That is all the verification I need. I say, "fine, fit her and this is what we will order if we don't like them we will be back". She is so excited and she loves them. She asked me to walk her to her classroom. I knew exactly why. She was apprehensive herself and I felt it 200 times more. She was proudly showing her glasses off to the people in the office. I was forgetting to breathe and almost passsed out. Huge sigh of relief, the secretaries were all so encouraging. You would think I was the one wearing the glasses. Then we turn to go to her classroom. My heart is pumping so fast, my mind starts racing. What will I do? How will I react? I think I am going to hyper ventilate. My palms are getting all sweaty, my eyes are racing and searching every face as we walk down the corridor. What am I worried about? Her class is in the lunchroom. "OH great, now she has to see the entire fourth grade class" all 10 of them. We walk down to the lunchroom and pass many other 4th grade classes in the hall. They recognize Kai and they give her great positive feed back. I eye each and every child who calls out to her and search the entire line of students looking for that one "mean" child, so I can squash them like a bug. WOW! no mean kids so far. We go to her lunch table and instantly everyone notices that she is wearing glasses. The boys are laughing and the girls are going crazy and Kai goes into instant shy mode! She was shy because everyone was staring at her. The girls were great and the boys after the shock wore off came up to her and told her they liked her glasses. I was the big ol fool who was worried. I should have had more confidence in her. I should have had more confidence in the way we reared her. She is a confident girl. She is a well liked girl. ::sigh:: Just another blessing that I am so thankful to Heavenly Father for. Thank you, Father; for quieting my fears. As mother's you know how you feel about your children and their acceptance. God, probably knew that this ol' mama would go all ghetto on those poor little kids and He knew I sho didn't need anymo drama in my life. LOL Yes, after I was secure enough that my child would be fine and she didn't need mama eagle in the presence I turned my body around and walked out of the cafeteria doors, breathing deeply and methodically. In and out, in and out; blowing huge sighs of relief.