Harder than I thought.....

I thought I could blog through this hiccup in time but it has proven to be quite burdensome. I feel like I am Job. Job went through physical, mental and emotional bankruptcy. I would be a big fat baby if I had to go through the physical. We are now experiencing true unemployment for the past 3 months. Absolutely no extra income has come in, other than what I can generate. (which isn't much). I pay for gas, car insurance, and maybe one other bill. Everything else is being pushed off until unemployment can kick in. Thankfully, the church has been putting food on our table via the Bishop's store house. We are so thankful for the bounty but I can not wait to be able to eat our own food again, and to be able to purchase yogurt and other things.

Mr. Incredible should have never sought employment. You see he went to work as a truck driver for my parents company. It paid 1/3rd of our income but it was allowing us to juggle bills. Driving was preventing him from making interviews and it was hard on him not seeing the children. I was doing quite fine. I knew my new roll and stepped up and filled the shoes. The children and I had a routine. We had the house duties covered, school and seminary and even work down. I was so surprised at how well things were going for almost two weeks. Then Mr. I shook things up when he decided he needed to be home. The plan was he would file for unemployment and take in a part time job. Well, that plan was shot out of the water. No part time job and no unemployment. In fact, nothing. No state aide and no food stamps, nada! I think I have lost have my mind.

The odd thing is I thought we would be moving to NY in October. I guess things didn't go well. Miscommunication, clearly. He thought he would drive some and be able to work in the office some.

I have increased hours by as many as I can possibly get. Scrapping for hours has me in and out of the house at odd times. Sometimes, I am up at 4:45am and not home until 11:00pm, sometimes I get home at 3pm or 9pm. My passion for photography has been sporadic because I need to focus on a job that will actually pay. Plus I can't have running through my head, how am I going to pay this or that while taking pictures.

My oldest son's bank account is 30miles away from where he is at. It doesn't make it convenient to get money out so he opened a local checking account. As he was verifying to see if funds were transferred (5)times. The bank was hitting him for $35 a pop. He was overdrawn. If you don't resolve your account in 5 days, they charge an additional $35. He had money in his account but the month prior he had parked his truck in a no parking zone, there are no signs, just painted red curbs. He found that out the hard way, when his truck was towed and he had to pay the fine. So, that was the month prior, we went to visit him the next month and the last month he was overdrawn by $5, but because it all happened on the weekend he ended up with $175 of overdraft fees. Dear son calls home, anger out of frustration on my part as well as Mr. I, because there is NOTHING we could do to help him. Son was on the phone with the bank, they waived ONE fee! ugh.... thank you, husband and I sit for 3 hours in the bank and they tell us they can do nothing. Once a decision online has been made we have to call customer service. Mr. I, calls and he gets a few more charges waived. My sil comes to the rescue of Warrior. She wired his butt some moolah.

Thanksgiving was a perfect beautiful day and we had a perfect beautiful turkey and a meal fit for a king. We usually spend the holiday with family but boarding our mastiff would be too massive. HA! and I don't think anyone wanted to spend it at the house of Gloom. This was the first Black Friday that I did not shop. It is one of my most favorite days of the year. I couldn't even bare to open the paper, it still lays on the floor of my car. Beauty went out with her friends family. I couldn't do that to myself. But now that the Friday is over, I'm over it too. I love how I am so not attached to anything.

My children are amazing, they are are astounding and they have no idea what strengths they have. As their parents we are not people of woe. You take what comes to you and you work with it. The children have not complained. They know what it means to have their dad home and understood the consequences of it. I know it would be hard to be a teenage girl and have no clothes or shoes bought. I know they have tattered and worn clothes but they are still clean and kept. Yet not one word of complaint. They don't even fight. In fact, their ties have become stronger. We truly are a family, worthy of eternity. This is what it is all about. Our temporal life is so temporary and so finite, but what we do here is so eternal. Reading scriptures and praying each night as a family as unified us and solidified the true core of who we are as their parents and what truly matters. I pray their decisions continue to lead them down a righteous path. I know being a part of this hiccup will make them stronger, and capable of handling the trials that will come to their adulthood life. They will know to trust in God, to lean on family and to forge strong friendships.

We choose an eternal family. We choose to go through this with dignity and heads held high, A job will come. I have no doubt. I'm so grateful for my passion of photography and love for my family. On every wall and surface of my home is a picture of one of my children and our family. I can not look anywhere and there not be a photo of our family smiling back at me. Even when you go to the bathroom there are two pictures of us, staring right back at ya! LOL, if there is ever a question is it worth it, the walls scream, "HAIL YA" and my eyes fill with salty tears of gratitude.

I know the church is true, I know that Jesus Christ is the Son of God, I know that Joseph Smith restored the gospel. I know we are lead by a true and living prophet, today. I know we are not given more than we can handle and I know that the bitter taste of trials are necessary so that we can know the sweet when blessings are given. I'm thankful for my parents, brothers and sister, my husband's family, my children and most importantly my eternal spouse, who puts up with me and my multi personalities. I'm so blessed to be surrounded by such love and goodness. Finally, my blog is caught up.