On the 18th of April marked your passing of a year. I can't believe I made it. Some days were harder than others; mostly in the beginning transitioning through the habitual tasks of the day. As the months went on I stopped calling and I finally deleted your number from my phone. That was hard but a much needed closure moment.
I am well. I still miss sharing fun things with you and I miss hearing your witty sayings about what was going on in the news or the latest gossip. I am sure you would have loved the Royal Wedding. I know how you loved Diana. I wonder what you would have thought about American Idol this year. I think you would really like Scotty and Lauren and I think you would have really liked Pia.
Dad has done a lot of temple work these days. Many relatives work has been done and yours will be done very soon. Dad is really fired up on doing geneology work. He said he found someone on Gramps side, he's been hovering around grave sites. I know how you felt about grave yards and I tend to feel the same way. I can hear your laughter, now. We like to be around the living. But you have marked your year and now your work can be done as well! WOOHOO!!
I spent that day in service. I knew I wanted to keep myself busy and I knew you might think I was a bit ridiculous pining around moping. So, I helped a young mother move out of a not so good situation. I spent the day doing things for others and when I least expected it rememberances of you were always there making me smile. Your song played on the radio and I smiled.
I found you in many places. Each time I saw beautiful flowers I thought of you. I know your favorite flowers were roses and I thought I would plant a rose bush. But the two flowers that remind me most of you are peonies and lilacs. It's a childhood memory I have of walking to your house after school and seeing you tend your flower garden. But, I always remember you raving on your peonies and lilacs. And as I saw the lilacs and as its perfume fragranced the air each time the wind blew. It sang to me that you were alright and with that I knew I was alright too. As I watched my tulips emerge from the ground I was reminded that life lives again. Once dormant waiting patiently for the snow to leave and the weather to warm buds a beautiful flower. And after just celebrating Easter how true it is! There is life after death. I am so grateful for Heavenly Father's perfect plan! I am so grateful for the atonement and for Jesus Christ. Life does not just end. It is eternal. How sweet that comfort and knowledge is.
So, G! Life is good! I have found a true friend much like you. We both tend to call each other almost daily. Sometimes our chats are lengthy but she feeds my soul the way you did too. She is always loving and kind and caring about me and my family. She is always positive like you. Sometimes, I think she wears the same rose colored glasses that you had. She always wants to know how the kids are and she is a true confidant. She accepts me. All of me, the good, bad and the ugly and she excuses away any of my ugly traits to being not so bad or issues of others. LOL, just what I love! I hope I can be just as good of a friend as she is to me! I guess my task is to endure to the end and keep placing one step in front of the other as long as I'm moving forward and not backward I'm doing ok! Love ya.
Book closed.
