Temple Sealing and Adoptions! March 2013

I have decided that it is important that I just get memories documented and I know it goes against my highly organized OCD personality but I truly believe that we will be accounted for how well we kept a journal of the experiences in this life and the blessings! So, I am basically going through my phone pictures and my computer pictures and writing about all those things I can remember! Which perhaps may be the sweetest and I can sift through the unimportant petty things and truly document what is necessary and needful!

My brother and sister in law have had adoption come across their hearts and through a few failed adoption processes they have come full circle and found these amazing children! 

I thought about adoption but it was never forefront in my mind. It was always if it is meant to be, they will literally drop in my lap and I wouldn't have to do anything but would just no. After meeting A and T for the first time we left TN so bright eyed and in adoption land! I scoured the internet and had known that my brother and sister in law truly blessed the lives of these children and that they too would bless and change them. I think I had adoption rose colored glasses on. 

When I was 30 and was told that Dash would be our last biological baby I was heartbroken but had known that the Lord blessed us so abundantly with FOUR beautiful children, already. He had known that I could not and would struggle making the decision for myself to not have any more and I would probably die trying. My answer was clear concise and bitter sweet! After he was born there was no doubt about it that he would be the last and I very quickly wrapped my head around that. I knew I was sick and laying in the ICU at one point, I resolved that if I had fulfilled my mission as my patriarchal blessing said, than I had done enough and would move on to the next step. I am so grateful that the Lord chose to continue to bless me with so many life experiences. So, I closed my mind to entertaining having any more children and moving on to the next season of my life. 

Watching their new family was so sweet. I was moved more to the thought of blessing children's lives. I make no qualms or pretenses that I think we are perfect and handle everything correctly to take on the responsibility of rearing another person's children BUT I do know that we can love unconditionally and we can discipline in love and teach children to love and know God. I knew we were out of the diaper stage and then it came to the children deciding on ages etc. WE went into depths but when it came down to it, our answer was no and it continues to be so! 

But, for this lucky family their answer was yes! and life has been so rich for them! I was so glad we were able to attend their temple sealing and enjoy the weekend with them!