Mothering

I always knew I wanted to be a mother. I knew from the depths of my soul that I would have children and I knew I always wanted to have 4 children just like my grandmother. I loved my childhood. I loved going to my grandparents house every Sunday and being with my aunts, uncles and cousins. My dad's side all of his siblings stayed near his parents. Oh, they all ventured out at one time in their lives but they all came back home. It is some of my most cherished memories and I wish for those type of memories for my children and one day my grandchildren. Sadly, we do not live close to either side. But, we have instilled the importance of getting together. We do most of the travelling, it makes it nice because we fly free.

My younger daughter, Sweetheart has many motherly talents. She is drawn to babies and little children. A crying baby does not stress her out. She will continue to try to soothe the babe. She likes everything about them, even the not so happy ends. It brings the greatest joy to see her bouncing, cooing and soothing a fussy baby and not instantly turning the babe back over to their parents or to me. I find wonder in that because I never could remain so calm. A crying baby can still bring my body temp. up and cause my sweat glands to go into over drive.

My older daughter, Beauty has wonderful mothering skills. She loves babies but I think she adores the interactive ages from 9months to 8yrs. She is so calm and good with them and a natural teacher. I see that she could easily teach children.  She beams at their smallest achievements and I think if she can do this with children who aren't even hers I can't wait to see what she does with her own.

I had no idea the capacity of love that I would have once I became a mother. To have someone completely depend on you for every need and every ounce of happiness is overwhelming and beautiful. My heart truly walks outside my body each time my children take a step. Birthdays have always been a big deal for me with planning them for my children. But, they are beginning to lose there savor. Because with each birthday they are getting older and with that they fly away from my nest and they only visit.  But, it brings me such joy to see that these little adults are beginning to adult themselves and they are doing so well and I can't help but beam with pride to think I had something to do with that! I love having my children all together and I love capturing those moments with pictures and they HATE IT!! But, as they leave they marry and we get to have another beautiful soul to our family!

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