The blessed day has come that we watched the tail lights and heard the rumble of our dual exhaust pick up truck exit our driveway not to return until next year. It was best for Warrior to have a vehicle. This tempered many of our apprehensions. He will now have no reason to "have" to ride with an unsafe driver, he will be able to attend all church meetings and activities, and he will be able to get whatever necessities may come up. I've been his mother long enough to also know that this will also be his means of recreation. He may go mudding or on excursions and I hope he does take a few weekend trips somewhere and explore this beautiful country that we live in.
My heart broke and I thought that someone sucker punched me right to the gut! I couldn't breathe, my eyes stung and welled quickly with salty tears, and silence was good; until I gasped for air and was betrayed by my quivering stomache and tight throat that seemed to evoke sounds of a wild coyote in pain. I was astonished myself. Yet, being embarrisingly aware of these noises I couldn't stop them either. I just stood there like a statue squawking and waving good-bye. But, I knew he would be fine.
The one who took it the hardest was Beauty. Beauty must have cried for at least an hour or more and I was there to hold her and talk with her. Beauty has always been in Warrior's shadow and was quite content to be there. The two of them have always been quite close. They aggravated each other but they had this secret pack with one another as well. She was lost, she was alone and she had lost truly her best friend. What a wonderful opportunity she has. Her siblings will now turn to her, she will be the leader, she will be the protector, and she will be the one they turn to when they don't come to us, "the parents". It is her time! I look forward to a new relationship with her a different relationship with her. This is her time. I anxiously await to experiencing it with her.
Sweetheart and Dash they wiped a tear or two went back into the house and fell asleep quickly, after all it was the tender hour of 6am. Dash's funniest comment was who am I going to tell all my girl issues to? That question slapped me in the face! "What girl issues?" He said, "Mom, you just wouldn't understand"! In which I replied, "Yeah, right buddy."
All of Warrior's siblings have turned to him for counsel, guidance and answers when they felt they couldn't come to me. The ache of missing him comes from him being such a good big brother, a good son and a good leader. We miss you but we are so excited for you!! I am so glad that college is paying for your food bill and that you are able to eat all you can eat as much as you can eat during cafeteria hours! Make your mark, son. LOL
One last family photo opt until December or maybe November.
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Mr. Incredible said his goodbye's on Saturday, August 15th. It was short and sweet because he had two a days! It was heartfelt. Mr. Incredible felt like he was saying good bye to his son but also more importantly his son, had become a man who had grown into being his best friend.
Warrior had practice Sunday morning at 6am and then he went to church. It was a branch there. Everyone was so nice and generous and so excited to see him. Two nice ladies had already invited him to dinner! The church no matter where you go is your extended family! I knew he would be well taken care of. What a great little town and haven he has found. Next Sunday when they aren't in two a days he will be able to attend the University Ward, which will be a student ward. I know he is looking forward to that.
I can talk about Warrior and I am doing fine. But, I can't bring myself to talk to him on the phone. I'm afraid my voice will betray my true wishes for him and I think it is more important that he knows I support him and love him. I talk to him through his dad and texting works. I think he has not called my phone for the same reasons. WE have texted and that will suffice for now. I love you Warrior. Go get em!
13 comments:
i'm so glad i have a few more years until that day comes at my home. but it will be my daughter first!
through hardships we grow... i know you know. What an example your son is to his siblings. You have an awesome family!
btw - love the boxer shot. what is it with boys? i can hardly get my 13 yr old to put shorts on let alone a shirt. i'm glad school has started.. at least he wears clothes there!
Man! Your are killing me!! I don't even no your family face to face wise and my heart breaks for you!! I am not looking forward to that day when Makayla flies the roost!! I am positive your man will be amazing out on his own! You have done an amazing job raising your family!!
Oh my gosh...I'm so crying right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think it makes me think of my son (who is only 13), and I'm picturing myself in your shoes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'
Oh...and the part of him and Beauty...ahhh..so sweet!!!!!
OH my heart breaks for you and Beauty's.. ok your whole family..
But I guess It will prepare you for when he goes on his mission and you can't see him for 2 years. i know pour salt on the wound.
Girl, you know I love you and your family, what I great time in your lives, to grow and to learn. hugs to you my dear!
The first time Kass went away it was to Army Basic Training. He would call Steve's phone for the first little while. He could talk to Steve because they had the Military connection. It was a safe topic. After he figured things out he called my phone. It was nice when he had AIT because he had his phone back and we could text again. The weekly email helps a lot with him being on his Mission. I send an email whenever I think of something.
It is SO hard to watch them go!
The taillight picture really got me!!
He'll do great!!!
Oh man, that is such a heartbreak to see in the pictures! Bless your hearts! I'm so glad he went to church and it sounds like the branch took him under their wings! A mother's blessing!
Why do you gotta do that to me. I am over hear bawling like I just lost my first kid to college. Or my brother or my best friend grown child. I am seriously feeling your pain.
He will be o.k. and your reunion will be sweet. Can only imagine what it will be like when we get back to our Father in Heaven.
I am so not looking forward to that day. I hope things are easing up for you a bit...Remember when we were that young?
I know it has been a while since you posted this but I am in tears, what a great post about your wonderful son.
Okay, I am crying now!!
My eyes just teared up reading this! I'm definitely not ready for that to happen to me! I think it's so great that your kids are so close together, especially the oldest two. That is one bond that will throughout the eternities.
I know I am late in commenting here, but for some reason it hit me. We are in CT, and often have kids who come to our Ward from far away. From all kinds of LDS families and it is so awesome that they chose to play for a team out East and be a missionary of sorts w/in their predominantly non-LDS environment. Which, btw... a kid showed up in my Ward who looks a LOT LIKE Warrior. His gorgeous head of hair was the dead give-away. Any chance.... it could be Warrior? Never meeting him in person, hard to tell. But, the kid is truly a gifted young man in so many ways.
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