GLAD YOU'RE BACK!
I have chosen to share my storm in the moment publicly on my blog. This will be a first for me ever, even in real life. I have never shared the moment of the trial until after I have successfully overcome and the trial is nothing but a memory.
I am grateful for this little hiccup in life. I like the changes that it has implemented in my personal life as well as our family life. We fasted as a family this past Sunday, specifically for our family. It was so sweet and has a special en graven memory on my heart.
I really like this song with the lyrics. It makes me laugh. I also like seeing the Young Liza, at work. I sing this in my head also.
I put on a happy face and I smile and I disguise my voice so that it is exceptionally cheery. Perhaps, my tone is a little bit higher than normal and my grin a little wider than normal. But, to the average schmo no one would catch it. When asked how are you doing, I say "Great!" and I truly believe that.
However, my body has seemed to betray me and has chosen to hold a death grip onto each calorie I consume. Why?? Ugh, I have convinced myself to slow down and not over work. I keep telling myself everything will be fine. I know it will. I know that my body and mind are strong but my immune system is weak!
I can't even lie to Mr. Incredible anymore when I tell him, "I am OK" or I say, "I am fine. I'm not worried."Because staring right back at him as he looks into my gorgeous big brown eyes is this HIDEOUS RIDICULOUS Benedict Arnold COLD SORE! and there is not one sign of a cold.
When Mr. Incredible and I first married I would get huge cankers all over the inside of my mouth and these cankers all over my upper lip. I would inhale bottles of L-lysine and vitamin C to try to prevent an outbreak and try to make these nasty sores go away. WE would have to sink money into Abreva it runs about $15 for a small tube over the counter. The first years were very stressful on me, and I was in denial then too.
I was going to post a picture. But, I just looked at it and it's too gross to share! Just use your vivid imaginations. Picture puss. Yeah, now your imagination is worse than what it really looks like. YOU'RE WELCOME! :my pleasure:
My head and skin suffers. All of the moisture and natural oils of my body get depleted. I don't know where they go but I am starting to entertain the thought of seeking an opening for a Circus. I could be the freak woman with Alligator skin. Would you pay to come see me? I might bite ya just a little, if it would bring more tips. It could be worse. I could have boils! and for that I am grateful that I don't.
My signs are
Dry skin
Dry hair
Cankers
Cold sores
Weight gain.
What are your signs that your body is under stress?
But, seriously. Life is good. WE are fine and God is merciful. I step forward into the dark without trepidation and with faith. I know that if this is the journey that we must walk that I am not alone. He is with me. I also accept and heed the voice of warning for food storage, debt free life, and savings. I know that consequences both good and bad are the direct result to my obedience to these laws.
MG
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When I am stressed I eat. So weight gain and acne tend to be my give aways. Although, sometimes I get those things when I'm not stressed, too. Hang in there.
When I am stressed I eat.... and then I graze, and then I drink... but of course I drink nothing that helps the stress... hummm..
I am a stress eater too. BLAH!! I hope that things get better for your family. You will be in my prayers!!
really, I should nat be laughing at a serious time like this.
but I am....
I eat no matter what my mood!
It has always amazed me at how our bodies can betray us! Mine is weight gain and getting sick or migraines. Hang in there--sounds like you are a survivor!
My sister used to get the cold sores even in her nose...looked really painful. If I have had a fever, I will get one or two...it hurts so I feel for you. You are an amazing person to bare testimony of gospel truths even in trials. Please come to my blog, I am having an ugly quilt giveaway and then a post for another quilt giveaway..hers is prettier. I know you love quilts, maybe this will cheer you up???? It is amazing how many people have lost their jobs and will lose their jobs...
I stress eat, too. And when it gets to be too much, I just shut down. When I was engaged to a guy I didn't end up marrying, I was so stressed. I didn't realize it, but one day I just started throwing up. It knocked me out for a good 24 hours. It was summer. No one else had been sick, no one else got sick. I broke up with him shortly after, and haven't had a day like that since.
Isn't it crazy how non-physical things affect you physically? I know you had a hard time at first, and really let your psyche go through the grieving process. Maybe you need to do it some more. Let your mind feel the stress, and maybe your body won't feel it so much.
(I honestly have no idea what I'm talking about. But I want to help.)
I get tummy troubles. (lets just say, the throne in my home gets to know me better than I would prefer.)
I am so excited to see how well you are handling things though. I know that you will over come this. You are so incredibly strong. My prayers are still with you and your family.
♥hugs♥
Goose, you are a great example to us all. We all go thru trials but, look at how you do it!!! With your chin up and a smile... with faith! Thank you for your wonderful example!
Yeah, I stress eat too! And when I am mad, I clean. I dont want to clean, that is like a reward to everyone else. HUMMM...
I'm so-so sorry you are going through some stressful times. I'm a stress eater, so you know when I'm going through stress because I put on weight and eat crazily. I don't know what you are going through, but just know that I feel your pain. We struggle with a wayward child. We've struggled with a child who was sexually abused. We've lived through job losses, ex-wives, and other storms life blew our way. Just know you are not far from my thoughts and in my prayers and that I do understand. Take care, my friend.
I'm so-so sorry you are going through some stressful times. I'm a stress eater, so you know when I'm going through stress because I put on weight and eat crazily. I don't know what you are going through, but just know that I feel your pain. We struggle with a wayward child. We've struggled with a child who was sexually abused. We've lived through job losses, ex-wives, and other storms life blew our way. Just know you are not far from my thoughts and in my prayers and that I do understand. Take care, my friend.
Luvpilot gets those too. I get tension stress filled headaches that make it hard to function and don't go away without some heavy duty drugs. Hate it.
Ooooooh cold sores are soooo not fun! Of course, you know, when it rains it pours. I've been thinking about you the last couple of days and I am so sorry you are going through this. You are a strong woman, though, and hopefully this will be a temporary stress.
You can see it in my face when I'm stressed. I have a hard time hiding my feelings. And it shows on my face. Sometimes I won't even recognize cognitively that I'm stressed and someone will ask if I"m okay. And of course, I definitely have the emotional eating issue.
BIG hugs to you, friend!! Wish I could take you to lunch.
I think we all go through stressful things and have little tale tale signs. My friend loses weight. She can't eat. I eat. I go get nachos or something.
Mine is headaches and crabby. Oh, maybe the crabby is like always :)
But you are doing great. Your attitude a amazingly upbeat and postitive. WE are here for you.
MG, You have an uncanty way of making things seem bright even when there is no sun! Stay strong in your faith...it is the only thing that will get you through this trail!
When I am stressed, I EAT! Anything and everything in SIGHT!
Steve gets cold sores too. Now he takes a great antibiotic when he feels one coming so I can't seem to tell when the stress is coming!
I just get really quiet and need to be alone so I can work thru the stress. Prayers are still going your way.
You know faith proceeds the miracle. I know your miracle is coming! What a great example you are for the rest of us. So sorry about your cold sores. Hope those get better soon. Thanks for the song too! Loved it!
Hugs to you my dear! Sending prayers for you and your family.
L Lysine. It is an amino acid and it gets rid of cold sores fast. The sooner you start taking it the better it works. I load up on L Lysine as soon as I feel that little itch. And take a lot. The more the better.
I know this is difficult. I am here for you.
My body shows stress by gaining weight. I am stressed right now. BUMMER for my jeans are not fitting just so right now. m
Stress: migraines, upset stomach, don't drink enough so I get dehydrated (dry everything), eye strain, jaw pain, tired, sleepy,etc
You'd be surprised all the ways stress can manifest itself
MG I've been gone from blogging for awhile and I didn't know you're going through a really stressful time right now. I just read your post about Mr. Incridible's job situation.
I admire the faith and humor you are using to cope. Stress is very brutal to some of us physically, so I hope that this difficult time will be short. When my husband was unemployed for months years ago (remember the dot.com bust?) I had stomachaches everyday. My doctor said it was stress. Breathing exercises and yoga helped. I know it sounds cheesy and so California, but it honestly helped me.
I'll remember you and your family in my prayers tonight.
Girl, I'm so sorry your body is reacting so terribly to your mega stress. Have you tried those OralB cold sore patches? You should try 'em. If you can't find 'em let me know I'll mail you some!
love you!!!
You are amazing. Thanx for sharing in the middle of your trial instead of after..I think this blogging just might help a lot of us going through the same thing. We have had our share of bad news lately as well. I am counting my blessings more than ever.
But the stress eating has to stop..I get cold sores on my face when the stress is severe. Believe it or not I put clear finger nail polish on them and it stops them from spreading.
Woamn, my body handles it differentlly, I lose weight. I lost weight, but great for losing weight, and I would be 300lbs rather than go through our trials and stress.
Take it easy, relax, and know the lord will never make you do with out what is needed. know that and you will make it. Keep the faith so you won't break it..
sorry I had to rymn it..
ofa atu
Woamn, my body handles it differentlly, I lose weight. I lost weight, but great for losing weight, and I would be 300lbs rather than go through our trials and stress.
Take it easy, relax, and know the lord will never make you do with out what is needed. know that and you will make it. Keep the faith so you won't break it..
sorry I had to rymn it..
ofa atu
Canker sores are aweful! I am so sorry about your situation. It can't be easy for you and your family at all. I will keep you in my prayers.
So sorry to hear about his job! It's hits us as well and I've had to go back to work while hubby gets the online thing going again. I'm lucky to have found a job so quickly.
I have all the same stress signs you have! And panic attacks...tight chest, shortness of breath, and I'm pretty sure I'm getting furrow lines LOL
Good luck, {though you are such a force you probably don't need it :D}
We're praying for you! Hope everything works out. Just hang in there, Heavenly Father knows what you're going through and he'll make it all work out eventually :)
I never had a cold sore until my husband got deployed. Now it seems that I get them when I'm stressed. Thankfully they don't come with the small stresses. Kass speaks Sunday and we are having a luncheon so everyone can see him before he leaves on his mission. Guess what I am getting? I'm seriously trying to be calm.
I just posted on my blog that my new favorite website is http://www.wantitall4free.blogspot.com/ she has great info on deals, freebies and links to food storage sites.
Saying a prayer for your family today.
Do I need to sing to you again? I get migranes, eat a lot & used to drink Dr. Pepper like there was no tomorrow.
And my face breaks out bad.
I have been stressed out recently. Headaches, cold sore ( just started) at the corner of my mouth, skin is itchy, may get hives for no reason, craving for sweets!
The muscles in my back hurt ALOT! Hope the stress passes for ya!
Seriously, I know exactly how you are feeling...... I dont know if you have caught up on my blog, but my girls and I have finally moved into our new place, things are good. We are all happy, then I found out that the business I work for is closing - this Friday!!! Surprisingly I havent been stressed about it, maybe too much else happening. They have asked me to stay on for a bit longer to finalise all the financials, but they wont be able to confirm anything until Friday - so I am in limbo.
I thought I would be scared, now that I am on my own with my girls, I thought I would be worried about not having a partner to share the load, but last night after dinner, I thought I would go for a walk (there is a park entrance two houses from my new place), so I walked and walked and walked. I thought this will give me some time to sort through things in my head.....well nothing - I thought about things and instantly said, how do you feel about that and the answer was always ok, Im good. Am I in denial???? With all that I have been through over the past year I have worried, stressed, had panic attacks, and each time the things that were worrying me always worked out. The universe provided (this is what a friend told me, dont worry - the universe will provide, I was like yeah right) but it happened.
So Im hanging onto that, lets just hope the universe hasnt already provided me with all that I am entitled to.............
Take care my friend, I will check in on you again soon, dont have a computer at home anymore (the ex kept it), so will check in as soon as I can).
I get tummy troubles too, and can't sleep. My mind is too busy trying to think of solutions, so sleep won't come easily.
MG, I'm keeping you in my prayers. Hope all the obvious signs go away real soon. And I hope the inward part receives peace asap!
bless your heart, this post is why people love you. you are so open and honest. it's so refreshing. i used to withdraw from people when going through trials too. like you said, i'd pop back onto the scene after it was all over...but those times are when we need friends most of all!!! i am so sorry about the cold sore. like things aren't bad enough, you have to feel ugly? LOL those are the worst!!! when i am stressed, i get very tense. i can't eat, have acid reflux, my neck sometimes cramps up to where i can't even turn my head from side to side! makes me look like a weirdo.
Thanks for sharing your story publicly...that takes alot...but I also have a hard time with my body and body image in general...sucks!
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