The blessed day has come that we watched the tail lights and heard the rumble of our dual exhaust pick up truck exit our driveway not to return until next year. It was best for Warrior to have a vehicle. This tempered many of our apprehensions. He will now have no reason to "have" to ride with an unsafe driver, he will be able to attend all church meetings and activities, and he will be able to get whatever necessities may come up. I've been his mother long enough to also know that this will also be his means of recreation. He may go mudding or on excursions and I hope he does take a few weekend trips somewhere and explore this beautiful country that we live in.
My heart broke and I thought that someone sucker punched me right to the gut! I couldn't breathe, my eyes stung and welled quickly with salty tears, and silence was good; until I gasped for air and was betrayed by my quivering stomache and tight throat that seemed to evoke sounds of a wild coyote in pain. I was astonished myself. Yet, being embarrisingly aware of these noises I couldn't stop them either. I just stood there like a statue squawking and waving good-bye. But, I knew he would be fine.
The one who took it the hardest was Beauty. Beauty must have cried for at least an hour or more and I was there to hold her and talk with her. Beauty has always been in Warrior's shadow and was quite content to be there. The two of them have always been quite close. They aggravated each other but they had this secret pack with one another as well. She was lost, she was alone and she had lost truly her best friend. What a wonderful opportunity she has. Her siblings will now turn to her, she will be the leader, she will be the protector, and she will be the one they turn to when they don't come to us, "the parents". It is her time! I look forward to a new relationship with her a different relationship with her. This is her time. I anxiously await to experiencing it with her.
Sweetheart and Dash they wiped a tear or two went back into the house and fell asleep quickly, after all it was the tender hour of 6am. Dash's funniest comment was who am I going to tell all my girl issues to? That question slapped me in the face! "What girl issues?" He said, "Mom, you just wouldn't understand"! In which I replied, "Yeah, right buddy."
All of Warrior's siblings have turned to him for counsel, guidance and answers when they felt they couldn't come to me. The ache of missing him comes from him being such a good big brother, a good son and a good leader. We miss you but we are so excited for you!! I am so glad that college is paying for your food bill and that you are able to eat all you can eat as much as you can eat during cafeteria hours! Make your mark, son. LOL
One last family photo opt until December or maybe November.
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Mr. Incredible said his goodbye's on Saturday, August 15th. It was short and sweet because he had two a days! It was heartfelt. Mr. Incredible felt like he was saying good bye to his son but also more importantly his son, had become a man who had grown into being his best friend.
Warrior had practice Sunday morning at 6am and then he went to church. It was a branch there. Everyone was so nice and generous and so excited to see him. Two nice ladies had already invited him to dinner! The church no matter where you go is your extended family! I knew he would be well taken care of. What a great little town and haven he has found. Next Sunday when they aren't in two a days he will be able to attend the University Ward, which will be a student ward. I know he is looking forward to that.
I can talk about Warrior and I am doing fine. But, I can't bring myself to talk to him on the phone. I'm afraid my voice will betray my true wishes for him and I think it is more important that he knows I support him and love him. I talk to him through his dad and texting works. I think he has not called my phone for the same reasons. WE have texted and that will suffice for now. I love you Warrior. Go get em!
