Change is good, but I have a hard time with it. I like stability, security and order. I've always felt like a square peg trying to fit into a round hole. But being square can sometimes leave you rigid and hard and a bit unyielding. With the bouncing from here and there those hard edges of a square become less sharp and more rounded. To avoid confrontation I would silently disagree. But, inwardly be displeased with my lack of conviction to roar.
I feel like I have been a rock in rock tumbler. Life has truly been a roller coaster. The whirl wind of unemployment, the elation of being employed once again, followed by the panic of getting our house ready in NC to rent, and then the desperation of having to find a home to live in, in 2 wks which would be a perfect fit for 3 children each in a different school, throw in a new ward family. It is amazing, let alone a miracle that preparing our home, finding a home, was done all within 3 wks, and our move was done within 4wks. For someone who doesn't like change, I didn't have a choice but buckle up and hold on.
Life has been full pace and the summer has only propelled it. Our son is back from college and in days we will know where he has been called. Our home has had its first overnight guests and we have had countless dinner parties trying to get to know every family in our ward. Life for me is so very different than it had been a year ago. But life lessons of frugality and giving of our time and everything we have is priceless.
I've changed my living room color to peanut butter and I'm not sure how I feel about that. I've changed my son's room to two different colors, I've changed our office furniture around countless of times and I'm contemplating changing my job. My calling at church has even changed. I was the sunbeam teacher and now I've changed to be first counselor in Relief Society. Same thing right? I also took my Grandma's number out of my phone. I decided it was time once her number quit ringing and went to an out of service automated message. A sad day to reconcile with.
Change is good. It keeps me growing. One day I'll be that butterfly.
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AWw! My heart felt sad when I just read the part about you deleting your grandma's phone number. I know that had to be very hard for you to do.
Sounds like you have been very busy..but a good busy!
OK I can see you are catching up a bit - I need to do that too!
Change is not something I like anymore I realized :D It is hard to do the older I get. I am a "set in my ways" and sentimental kind of gal.
But I realize that change can bring many blessings - you have had many - So happy for you.
And did I miss it? I went through your more recent posts but didn't see if Warrior got the mission call yet??
you and i are so much alike. seriously... its kinda scary.
:)
but whether you realize it or not.. you ARE THAT BUTTERFLY already.
yes you are.
dont you argue with me.
naahh.
dont argue.
yes you are.
i know you are... i can tell.
WOW. You are seriously what I want to be when I grow up.
I LOVE change... but I hardly go about it with such grace and ease.
I'm in the same situation Mother Goose! New job, new home, new ward family. My kids are scared to death to start new schools, but I've told them it's all for a good reason. Someone out there is waiting for us to step in their world!:) They need us-and we need them.
I know I will never delete Porter's contact out of my phone. I have even called his number after we canceled his phone line just to see if anybody answers. Weird I know.
You are admirable with all the adjusting you seem to be doing so well. I love that you want to get to know your new ward family through dinners.
Change is very scary and I'm not sure I'm handling it as well as you seem to be. I appreciate reading positive examples.
I still have my dads work and cell # in my phone. I just can't seem to delete them for some reason. Still have voicemails from him too. Those are nice.
You really amazing me with the amount of introspective introspecting you do. haha I made up a totally incorrect sentence but it feels right so I'll leave it.
But seriously, you're really amazing! And you are right...we are definitely like rocks in a tumbler getting polished even though it's a lot o' tumblin'!
Can't wait to hear where the mission call is going to take him!!!
I still have my dads work and cell # in my phone. I just can't seem to delete them for some reason. Still have voicemails from him too. Those are nice.
You really amazing me with the amount of introspective introspecting you do. haha I made up a totally incorrect sentence but it feels right so I'll leave it.
But seriously, you're really amazing! And you are right...we are definitely like rocks in a tumbler getting polished even though it's a lot o' tumblin'!
Can't wait to hear where the mission call is going to take him!!!
I like YOUR changes! LOL. Except the phone thing, tis sad. But I HATE change with a might passion.
Hello fromt he beach! Change is hard for me too. But it is fun to see where it takes ya.
You'll be great in the Relief Society...You know I'm President in my ward...It has been full of change, but great experiences.
I started a R.S.blog...hey! maybe you need one more thing to do.
I think you handle change perfectly. everyday I say this is my new normal..cause it changes that much!!
That IS an overwhelming amount of change! We did that once- different order but similar steps.
I am glad you are adjusting to new circumstances and the finding all the positives.
I can't wait to hear where he is called! Maybe he'll be lucky enough to get the same mission my Dad served- Rarotonga, Cook Islands, South Pacific. Dad learned to speak Rarotongan Maouri (can't speak much now as it's rather difficult to find anyone who knows the language to speak to). He was there in the 60's when it was still a remote group of islands without a single hotel etc.
I cannot wait to hear the call.
Change is good if we just remember that it is necessary.
Sorry for all the chaos! I don't like change either...I loved your statement about feeling like you are in a rock tumbler. I've been feeling the same way the past while too...but all the tumbling around is what smooths all the rough edges and makes us SHINE!
I don't always deal well with change, either. I think you're doing an incredible job though. I've really admired the way you've handled everything this past year (or more). You'll do great in the RS! I'm surprised to hear you're thinking of changing jobs. Are you thinking of leaving the airlines or just changing positions? I know deleting your Grandma's number was hard. Is it weird I've saved voice messages from my family, just in case? Probably.
I never like change, but eventually I get used to it and try to go with the flow. You would be a great R.S. counselor!
I heard a saying that helps me...the only thing that is constant is change. It makes me feel a little better about moving on. That is awesome you got put into the relief society! I can honestly say that is one calling I have never been in! You will be awesome!
My life has been so similar lately, I've even left Primary after 4 years as President, and now I teach RS. It's scary in there! Changes are so hard to deal with. I am afraid we will be moving soon, and already know my 14 year old (going into 9th grade) is going to freak out. He's all set to be a starter on the Football team, and I dread the idea of ripping him away from it right before school starts. Yet I know in my soul it's going to happen, and it will be what the Lord wants us to do. Doesn't make it any easier. I'm so glad I have found you again to watch and learn from!
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